so the giants won the superbowl! i'm happy about that. i didnt feel like watching the patriots have a perfect season...or basically win again. haha

my senior year is turning out to be an AWESOME year. i love most of it. in swimming i have been getting better at backstroke. i even placed third in a meet aganist cumberland. the girls team made playoffs this year. so thats a first too. well at least since i've been to the school. and i cant believe that my last year of hs is almost over. its kinda saddening. and senior trip is almost here!!!! yay!! haha

still no man...and i dont think i want one...at least i'm not sure cause the right guy hasnt come along. oh well. theres always college next year =) haha

see ya

ok so its been forever since i wrote on here...but seriously what does it matter? its not like anyone really reads this. so yeah i dont even know why i'm doin it haha.
i'm a senior now...thank goodness.
field hockey is over...i didnt even get to play. i was almost always on the bench. and i wanna play in college so i dont know what good that was doing me! i mean SERIOUSLY!!! GOD that annoyed me so much.

so this year...besides that....i have a completely different group of friends than i used to have. i lost some and idk why or what i did to them...but what ev. i have also gained some back. and i made new friends.
i'm still friends with joanie thank goodness. even though she goes to a diff school...=( i miss her!
and i also lost one friend who i thought was my best friend but she really wasnt. but people come and go in our lives. it just the matter of who actually sticks around.

i do not have a bf. and dont know if i want one since i will be going to college in a year. i lost a guy who i really thought, no knew, i loved...i was just too scared to own up to those feelings...and now i dont think he will ever know or believe how i actually feel. it just really sucks cause i still have thosee feelings...oh well...better not start on that

dude this is really long....thats so not good man..(oh god theres heather's word again..haha) but seriously i did not expect to write this much...i'm stopping.

byes =)

field hockey is over. it was actually a fun season. i'm gonna miss the senoirs next year but guess what...I'M GONNA BE A SENIOR!!! haha anyway
i finished up playing both jv and varsity. so that was GREAT!

swimming is gonna start up soon! DUDE I CANT WAIT! i love swim season. its soo much fun. also my bday is gonna be coming up sooooon....yay. haha
i get to drive soon! =)

and i dont really know what else. i'm pretty good right now. ups and downs in life but what doesnt kill you makes you stronger and trust me, nothing is killing me right now. so i guess that means i'm gettin stronger.

ok just thought i should have updated.
see ya!

by the way...that quote that i mentioned a couple of posts back is....
"It isn't worth winning if you dont have to fight for it"
i finally found that out and i know that that quote is actually true.

ok so right now i am bored outta my mind. and i dont know where to begin...actually i dont even think i am gonna tell you if anything is bothering me. i mean why let people read it.
so school is back...and so is fh. AND I AM ON FRIGGIN JV!!! god i hate jv! but at least i get to play.....>=0 yeah anyway
homecoming is coming soon...(wow that sounds weird)and yeah gotta find someone to ask...
and i am bored right now which is why i am writing...i love being back at gc. and i actually like my classes!

ok i'm gonna write for like five maybe four minutes....
well you see, there is this guy....and he kinda has my heart.
hehe thought people should know that.
so yeah really bored...and now going to kohls...is that how it is spelled?????
random? yes i know...but thats me....
now as for this guy...hes always on my mind. and i cant get him outta my head. <3
ok gotta run...buhbye

its been a long time since i updated....hehe yeah i suck at these journal things but oh well...anyway...i think i found a guy that i can truely say "i love you" to. and that kinda scares me but, i am gonna start living by a new quote. Its a quote from a movie...i think its called The Cutting Edge 2. i dont know..but its "If it isnt worth fighting for, then its not worth winning." or something like that. but yeah. So i deicided to start living life to the fullest and fighting for what i want. good right? now lets see if i can actually do it. i think i will.

ok so summer is going extremely fast...I'M GONNA BE A FRIGGIN JUNIOR!!! omg i cant believe it!! its awesome!!!! just amazing!!!
so i went to my friend melissa's sweet 16 party...it was awesome! it was soo much fun
and i said how i felt finally to joan. i just let it all out and let her know how i feel...i felt better afterward...
but i cant believe summer is almost over...its going to fast
=( slow down dammit!

so yeah i am pretty hyper...so i thought eh why not write...haha.....
so yeah sophmore year was eh....lost what i thought to be a really good friend to find out she probably didnt care about me at all....oh well.....hope she has fun wherever she goes. whatever anyway have been having a BLAST with my other friends but i miss CAITI, ERIN, JENN, and BRIDGET. like tons and tons of tons!! haha yeah....so i must hang out with them pronto! but other than that, my summer has been going good.



I LOVE SUMMER AND MY FRIENDS ARE BETTER THAN YOURS!!! hehe i am hyper...can you tell????

i cant believe i am half way through! i am a junior!! this is just going by way to fast...i want it to slow down so i can take in the experience better..but that probably wont happen....

oh thank god school is finally out!!!! i am soo happy!!! now i can just hang out with my friends and have sooo much fun!!!!! even though i have a job....i will still hang out and have tons of fun!! party hard man!!! haha....but yeah... i seriously love it when school is out! sleep in a little bit later, hang out with my best friends!! (fab four + reina, Mongrels + Jenn, the walking group!!) man i cant wait!!! haha ok thats all folks!! hehe

god this week is taking FOREVER!! it should just end!!!! cant wait for summer....gonna be sooo much fun!!! hanging out with my whole group of friends!!! cant wait!! the walking crew will be reunited!! haha ooo summer get here faster!!!!
oh and working at my job is gonna be mad fun!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HEATHA DARLING!!!
SWEET 16!!!!!

I GOT MY PERMIT!!! I AM SOOOO HAPPY!!!!
I WANNA DRIVE NOW!!!!
I GOT MY PERMIT!!!!
YAY!!!!

JOAN "JOANIE BABIE" MATTERN IS MY BEST BEST BEST FRIEND EVE! I WUV HER TO DEATH! SHE IS MY OTHER HALF AND MY OTHER SISTER! she has been through so much with me and me with her. i wuv her with all my heart!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KEL!!! 21 YEARS OLD!!! WHOOP!!!!

i just really dont care anymore. i hate drama. and situations where no one friggin wins! and i am really hating how my heart feels man. (dude gotta stop haning out with heather. jkjk) i need to find myself. maybe one day i will. i should also stop denying my feelings man. its not good. but when i dont and i tell the person, i hate it cause 1)i am let down 2) hurt 3) with someone else or 4) they dont care how i feel. and you know what it friggin sucks man! but whatever. i just gotta breathe man. and let it all go.

yeah so anyway had to let that out man. but thank god for friens right???

WOO HOO!!! today was a friggin snow day!!! yes!! i got to sleep in and it was great!!! i didnt do anything all day which sucked though cause i wanted to do something....but nooo i was stuck inside my house all day...o well

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!

ITS MY BIRTHDAY BIOTCHES!!!!! WOOHOO!!!
SWEET 16!!!
YAY!!!!!